Understanding Step 4 of the 12 Steps

Table of ContentsView AllTable of ContentsNo Graduating ServicesTools to Help With Self InventoryStep 4: Daily InventoryStep 4: Being HonestStep 4: A JourneyNext in AA 12 Step Program GuideA Study of Step 5 in NA and AA’s 12-Step Program

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No Graduating Services

Tools to Help With Self Inventory

Step 4: Daily Inventory

Step 4: Being Honest

Step 4: A Journey

Next in AA 12 Step Program Guide

Step 4 of the 12-step program encourages one to make a “searching and fearless moral inventory” of themselves. This involves identifying our problems and getting a clear picture of how our behavior has affected ourselves and others around us in order to proceed to recovery.

That picture is not always in focus for newcomers early in recovery, but as we continue to hang around the rooms, listening and learning from others and keeping an open mind, we find more layers of the “onion” being peeled away.

Whether we come through the doors ofAlcoholics AnonymousorAl-Anon Family Groupschances are we bring a lifetime of “stinking thinking” with us. Frankly, it takes a while for the “fog” to begin to lift, so that we begin to see ourselves and the world around us more clearly.

If we have sincerely completed the first three steps and have truly made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of a higher power, then it is time to put that principle into action. We must find the courage to take a fearless look at ourselves and become willing to clean up the garbage we find.

We are not perfect, and never will be in this life. That is the reason there are no graduation services heldat 12-step meetings! But if we continue to participate,carrying the messageto others, and listening to what they have to share, we can continue to grow and make spiritual progress. That’s why they say, “Keep Coming Back!”

There are tools available to help in the 4th step of the process. There is a 4th Step Guideavailable onlinefor all 12-step members.

The online 4th Step Guide includes an exhaustive set of directions explaining how the guide works and a reminder that an inventory is simply a list: “Please keep in mind that the 4th Step is not dealing with changing anything. An inventory doesn’t change things; it simply lists things. Your inventory is only a story of your feelings and acts from the beginning until now.”

The online guide then provides questions and suggestions to help with an inventory from childhood, adolescence, and adulthood, with a final conclusion section for “here and now.”

The online 4th Step Guide is, of course, just a suggested guide that is intended to be helpful to those doing an inventory. It is not intended to be shared with anyone; it is for “your eyes only,” according to the directions.

In addition to the online guide, Al-Anon Family Groups has itsBlueprint for Progress: Al-Anon’s Fourth Step Inventoryworkbook.

But the greatest help available in doing Step 4 is available from a power greater than ourselves, as visitors to thebulletin boardhave demonstrated in their shares on this step, as ourstudy of the 12 Traditionsand 12 Steps continues:

As many of you know from my sharing at the Thursday night 12-step meetings, it took me a long time to get to even work on the 12 steps.

There finally came a time when I realized that I better get going on the 12 steps. By meattending so many meetingsI knew who I wanted to help me with the steps. This very good friend of mine chaired a lot of 12-step meetings (classes), which I started to attend. I went along just fine until I came upon the 4th step, and I hit a wall.

I felt really bad about so many things that I had done in my life, that it seemed impossible to get all of this inventory down right. Finally, one day I was sharing this with my sponsor, and he smiled and asked me where I was going. He told me to do the best that I can at this time, and I will have plenty of time to do the rest. He told me not to be beating up on myself (keep it simple), and this is just what I did.

It made it a lot easier, and through time, I was able to see better how to take my moral inventory. Once we take these steps, it doesn’t mean that we are done, nor does it mean that we have to always do the 12 steps in order. I have to take a moral inventory of myself every day of my life. I have to look back and make sure that I like what Skip has done.

Loveya,Skip

Here I am still on step 4. Been here for weeks, and weeks it will take to complete. The only thing I can say that has really helped was obtaining the questions to the step on the internet.

There must be 100 questions there, and I am still in the childhood part. It is a very hard thing for me to do but I must do this. Being in my 40s, I asked the question, why dear God? Why go back to the past, the painful past? The past is gone, today is here, and tomorrow is my hope.

I see now why I must do this and continue to do so. My mother had analcoholic addictionand died at 49; my brother did as well and died at 48. Forty-seven is coming for me, and I am not going. Looking at the past has made me understand now more than ever why I married someone with an alcohol addiction.

This step is hard and can be painful, but I only ask that you do it. One hour a day is not that much time. Write out the answers, be honest with yourself, and remember God is with you if that pain goes right into your heart. And also remember we are all here for each other.

—SS

Step 4 started out for me as a very scary thing. “Moral” inventory? I struggled with questions of morality for most of my life. I came from a religious background that was strict, conservative, and self-righteous. And the self-appointed leader in the family was a woman disgruntled with men, so nothing I said or did, even at age 12, was even close to her moral boundaries. So when I was told that eventually I would take a searching and fearless moral inventory, I was quite reluctant.

Now, to get through Step 4. My sponsor had asked me to do several things as a precursor to Step 4. First, I had to list 10 physical attributes about myself that I liked. Then, I had to list 10personality traitsabout myself that I liked. Another list was at least 10 people who loved me. I had to read these lists every morning and every night for two weeks.

My sponsor continued: Take a sheet of legal paper. Draw a line down the center, and then put a mark in the middle of the line. This was my lifeline; the center was the middle of my life (at the time, I was 32, hence the mark indicated age 16). He told me to start making marks on the line, denoting major events in my life.

So I embarked on my 4th step journey. I wrote, and I wrote, and I wrote. I made lots of progress, but one day, I just couldn’t write anymore. I knew I wasn’t finished, but I had reached a brick wall for some reason and couldn’t go on. I talked about it in meetings. I talked to my sponsor, but he couldn’t help me.

Then, a friend in the program invited me toan ACOA meeting. I went to that meeting, and after only 10 minutes, the brick wall had fallen down. I resumed writing my 4th step and completed it in just another week. ACOA opened my eyes to many things that I had suppressed.

With my 4th step completed, I was ready (or so I thought) forStep 5.

—Sox

If you or a loved one are struggling with substance use or addiction, contact theSubstance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) National Helplineat1-800-662-4357for information on support and treatment facilities in your area.For more mental health resources, see ourNational Helpline Database.

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